Friday, May 6, 2005

Sad day!

I am sitting up right now really sad. I was woken around 2:10 am this morning Friday, May 6th while Alan was at work at UPS. I kept hearing a thump noise in my little bathroom in my room. I looked and it looked like Dexter (our cat Dexter is a homeless stray we took in about 8 months ago) was trying to get comfortable to sleep in there. So I just put my head back down and was getting ready to go back to sleep when I heard the thump noise again. So I flicked on the light and he seemed to be having difficulty standing on his back legs and he was breathing very hard. I jumped out of bed and ran to him. He was struggling to breath and was extremely weak. I felt so bad for him. I was so upset because I just didn't know what to do for him and Alan was at work and I was having a hard time reaching him. Finally, I called my mom and dad My mom just said when she saw Dexter a week ago that she didn't think he looked right. I explained what was happening and mom ... who is a nurse... said it sounded like he was on his way out and there was nothing I could do for him except to try and make him comfortable so I got a soft towel and put it under his head. His right eye kept tearing terribly. He just kept trying to lift his head and I told him to stop trying to fight it and that it was time for us to say goodbye. I told him it was time for him to let go--that someone was waiting for him on the other side and that he will feel better again. I sat with him for 40 minutes when he seemed to have a seizure and then took a deep breath ... just then he started to breath very shallow. He just kept looking at me and I was just crying and rubbing him behind his right ear telling my little buddy that I love him. Then all of a sudden I could just feel like he wasn't there anymore. It was like the life you saw in his eyes were just gone. At 2:50a.m. Dexter died. I was sad but I was happy that he was at peace. It was just hard to watch him suffer. He seemed fine earlier...even begging for chicken at dinner as usual. Anyways.. Alan finally came home from work at 4:30am he was sad that Dexter had passed. So Alan and I cleaned Dexter up and put him in a box. This morning we got up and Alan dug him a hole behind our garage in the backyard. We said a little prayer and I read a poem. Then we each took a turn putting a little dirt on the box and said our goodbyes. Needless to say David was very upset so he ended up staying home today from school he was up all night crying. Brittany didn't have to be to school till 12:45 so she ended up going to school. I sure am going to miss Dexter. He came into our lives as a stray cat about 8 months ago. I never knew how sick he really was but I am happy we were able to give him a home for him to enjoy for the few months that he did have with us. Here is the poem we read:

Goodbye little buddy....Dexter

Came into our lives 9/14/2004 -- Died 5/6/2005 at 2:50am

To have loved and then said farewell, is better than to have never loved at all. For all of the times that you have stooped and touched my head, fed me my favorite treat and returned the love that I so unconditionally gave to you. For the care that you gave to me so unselfishly. For all of these things I am grateful and thankful.

You took me in when I needed a home and someone to love. All I ask now is that you not grieve for the loss, but rejoice in the fact that we lived, loved and touched each others lives for however long I lived. My life was fuller because you were there, not as a master/owner, but as my FRIEND.

Today I am as I was in my youth. The grass is always green, butterflies flit among the flowers and the Sun shines gently down upon all of God's creatures. I can run, jump, play and do all of the things that I did in my youth. There is no sickness, no aching joints and no regrets and no aging.

I will await the arrival of you my faithful companion and I know that togetherness is forever. You will live on in my heart as I will in yours. Companions such as you are so rare and unique. Don't hold the love that you have within yourself. Give it to another like me and then I will live forever. For love never really dies, and you are loved and missed as surely as I am.

Love, Your Pet In Heaven...."Dexter"

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